Not a Pawn

The all-consuming delusion of being God - It may seem silly, sad, strange, and fascinating. It may be terrifying and aggravating. Those affected by the illness may seem as dark and deep as an endless pit. The pawns may feel rejected by the world and forever split In two separate beings: the one that sees all and the one who wishes to see nothing. The deluded mind may never see the light, It may be scorched by the fires of its false glory. Or it may flee. But the pawn, who's left standing on a board, decides What it will take to be the queen of its own story. "The Queen" sounds so pretentious, So alike a term from God's book, Not illuminating or wise. Yet, the strings that tie the pawn to the board are not evil sacrificial lies. They are the gravitational pulls of our lives. As the pawn observes the loneliness of its path and feels at last The split may have been a bitter blessing, Not a medicine, not an excuse, but the reality of existence. To be a pawn, to be the game, to invent your own, to live beyond it all. To see the world for what it truly is, even if it doesn't exist at all. ✨Astore Faber✨ A collection shaped by the tension between vulnerability and self‑determination. Not a Pawn explores the inner split between the self that sees too much and the self that longs to see nothing at all — the darkness, and the strange clarity that emerges from surviving it. These artworks reflect the journey of reclaiming agency on a board that was never of your choosing, and stepping into a life defined not by false glory but by honest awareness. This collection honors the quiet, defiant truth at its core: you are not a pawn, not a role assigned, but the author of your own story.